I know, I'm dead literally everywhere.

I've been so freaking busy with school, and I've actually been very upset and pissed for an entire month now. It's mainly because of real life drama (rl friends, family, school) and whatnot.

Here's a basic summary of what's been bothering me, it's not the entire story. If any of my good friends (online or rl, doesn't matter) are willing to listen my entire story, hook me up on msn and I'll tell you.

*University/College applications are out this month (actually, they've been out since the BEGINNING of December) and they're due by January 13th. <----That has been haunting me on and off during the past few months. Too bad that it's going to haunt me until I finally figure out what I want to do.

I originally wanted to become a graphic designer when I get older (I had this passion since I was 10, too bad that I lost it when I was 15) but with our crappy economy, screw living on low payment + low demand. I'm considering (not exactly positive, it's an idea) in going into naturopathy after a university/college but I'm so effing confused about what type of Bsc they want from a graduate. x_X

The good news is, I have a great amount of interest in core subjects. However, I don't know ANY program that I can do with grade 12 U level biology, chemistry, advanced functions, calculus and vectors (I'm planning on taking that class for my extra semester of high school), and English credits without a physics credit (I ended up getting a 54% as my final mark for my grade 11 physics class, I don't think I'll ever take it again).

I'm very paranoid of how my marks are going to turn out, that's the biggest worry that I have now.


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*Rl drama:
This is basically the main thing that ticked me off so...

Let's just say that I dislike this girl at my school for my good reasons (she's racist, rude, disgusting, annoying literally; overall she's ugh, a weaboo that I want to get away from) and she's friends with my best rl friends.

To be short, my rl friends indirectly found out how I disliked that girl, and after a bunch of stuff that happened, I figured that they like me less than before now. I stopped talking about non-related school stuff with my rl friends; I only talked about important school stuff (very little is spoken basically).

Ever since that day, in the middle of November, more shit started happening to me (drama drama drama!), which made me even more sad and pissed. I've literally stopped being myself to everyone for an entire month now, and I'm getting so many negative thoughts that I don't want to think about but I'm even starting to agree with some of them.

Sorry, I'm just going to end it there, it's very lengthy of what's been going on so yeah. =/



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Art Requests: Closed.

Art trades: Closed until further notice.

Commissions: ???

Good gosh, I got a majority of my stuff back after 3 and a half months! A friend of my brother and I allowed me to download Adobe Photoshop CS3 onto this laptop and straight away; I started proceeding onto my art. ;o;

I hope I didn't rust too much from my absence. >_<



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Art Requests: Closed.

Art trades: Closed until further notice.

Commissions: ???

Collaborations: Open.

Yup, you heard me. I lost every single fucking thing that was on my laptop (the one that I do all of my artwork on). =/ I turned on my art laptop, it loads up to the desktop right? It suddenly just crashes and reboots itself. After that, it shuts itself down. When I tried turning it back on again, it shuts itself down after a few seconds. =___=;

Here's a list of what I lost (the most important to me):

-My fucking PSD files (I'm talking about OVER 100 hours of effort spent on), which contains my beloved, a shit load of time spent on art.
-My school work (not to mention the weeks of spending time on making my math notes on; luckily they're printed out back in January)
-Every, single, valuable, thing that was given from my friends and other people (E.g: Gift art)
-My original RPG stories, I spent hours typing up character info and storylines (Not to mention that I WAS working on 4 stories)
-Adobe Photoshop 7.0
-iTunes (My iPod was close to dead during school today)


Some good news is that I still have some of my PSD files and music on here...but not the huge ass PSD files like [link] (*cough25MBinsize*) which was something I truely spent a lot of effort on.

I was working on a drawing for a special someone too, and now its process is gone. I've failed to keep my promise and I broke it to him. ><

I can't even do any art trades for people who have asked me (I'm so sorry and ). ;__;

Now, I'm stuck with my Vista which doesn't even have Microsoft Word 2003 for my school work and Photoshop for opening my PSD files on here. =_=

Jesus, I don't even know what to do anymore. Either I start working so I can get enough money for a computer shop to take a look at my laptop and find out if the battery or the hard drive is dead or even both. Or, I give up on my digital art and just doodle.

I'm sorry about bringing such a negative journal after a little hiatus, it's just that I'm so fucking upset that I lost everything. ><



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CANNOT DO ANY ART UNTIL FURTHER NOTICE

Art Requests: Closed.

Art trades: Closed.

Commissions: Closed.

Collaborations: Closed.

ATTENTION HEADER LOL: Sooo yeah. There's this stupid spam bot going around on dA using people's accounts to spam others. I haven't gotten any from anyone or even fell for those stupid tricks from that nasty bot. However, I've seen other people receiving these types of links I'd like to give out a few tips to the unknown. [Read more from the below]

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Warning: This crazy 16 year old girl has very bad grammar/English.

Thanks for watching, commenting and faving my stuff everyone. Sorry for not leaving a comment on your page to thank you! There's too many messages that pile up in my inbox. *lazy* xD

blazingrunaway's Devious Journal

Here are the tips that I promised from the attention grabber from the above.

created a very useful script that will automatically turn those spam links into just text, not a link itself. You can find the deviation and the link to it in its description here. [link]

I downloaded it myself and it's really helpful. Even though I'm aware of the situation I downloaded it anyways because I could slip my mouse and click on that link by accident (I know that sounds stupid but it has happened to me several times where I wanted to click on a certain link instead I clicked on something else of where I didn't want to go to). Who knows? I might be one of the first several victims that can get any type of spam links that wouldn't be very well known until it starts spreading around.

If you don't have Mozilla Firefox, by all means download it already! D: Download it here [link]

Hover over links, check them but DO NOT CLICK on them before proceeding: I mean seriously, it's not hard to do. If it's a suspicious looking link and that you don't trust it, then don't click on it. It's simple as that.

Use your resources: If enough people are stating that this certain link is bad (E.g: Porno, viruses...etc), don't click on the same link that they had to go through. x_X If it's a URL that's completely safe (E.g: Deviantart, youtube), then you are safe there.

Don't trust phony sites, EVER. If you end up at a page that looks just like an official site (In this case, let's say deviantART) but the URL is completely different from the real site, don't enter your account information or anything, get out of there IMMEDIATELY.

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What I'm listening to music link

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Art Requests: Never.

Art trades: If I trust you enough to return the favor, then yes. See here. [link]

Commissions: In my dreams.

Collaborations: Yes, under these circumstances seen here. [link]

Warning: This crazy 15 year old [to be 16 on the 29th LOL] girl has very bad grammar/English.

Thanks for watching, commenting and faving my stuff everyone. Sorry for not leaving a comment on your page to thank you! There's too many messages that pile up in my inbox. *lazy* xD

blazingrunaway's Devious Journal

I hope everyone is having a wonderful time during these holidays, mine's been alright so far.

Btw, I love Tales of Symphonia: Dawn of the New World so muuch. I got it when it came out and I can't believe that I finished it in 2 weeks; I was so into the game LMFAO. I like all of the new characters as well as the old ones of course.

(Featured deviants will be posted on the next journal)



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